Comma Optional

Sliding my finger under the flap.  Slowly pulling the card from the envelope.  Skip the date, the place, the for who...  Is it?  Is it?  YES!  Black tie optional.

I love black tie optional.  Tuxedos with or without bow ties.   Dresses with matchy-match shoes.  It's like going to the Oscars for a night.  If you want to.

If you don't want to, the unwritten rule is: Don't be a slob.  Hence, the optional.

I'm not as much a fan of black tie required or requested.  It can be an unnecessary expense and I would be sad to know someone couldn't join in a joyous event because of a hardship.

This is exactly how I feel about commas.  (Not to be confused with COMAS- those should never be optional, required, or requested.)

There are so many rules for commas.  I used to have them all memorized and mastered.  In my professional field, I ABSOLUTELY follow the rules.    I'm a wide reader.  That's not a reflection of my waistline but the amount of text I've read.  Being exposed to so many authors, most have a command of commas.  Some stylistically avoid them unless they're really dependent on them.  (HAH!)   Then...we come to the gems that could have used a little more polish.  Just like people, I don't walk away if the message is good despite the delivery.

To be honest, I spend so much energy on being as perfect during my work day as possible (cross t, not I; mind my p's & q's; make sure clients & colleagues come first).  It's nice to blog without formality.  My revisions and edits tend to focus on word checks (Blast you, Humpback of Notre Dame) and did I use -ly right (probably not).

Just like me at a black tie optional wedding (pretend Oscars event in my head), my content is still worthwhile (I hope) even if I go with the optional.  I try not to come across as if a slob.  (The sick and purring cat on my lap who is responsible for my typos and lack of energy to troll for them agrees.)

And, my shoes might not be perfectly matchy-match, but they have style.

Letting Go

I had a different blog planned for this weekend.  Life throws us curveballs.

I've been writing throughout the week (see below) about our experience with our fur face, Angel- through her eyes- as we prepared for her departure.  I wasn't writing for an audience.  I simply needed to process what was happening and ensure we were doing right by her.  I posted it on Facebook to release it.  To purge it.  I thought maybe three people would be concerned.

I was wrong.

An amazing thing happened.  Support poured in.  People (and their cats) sent us private messages.  Someone said she shared the Angel Action updates with a friend in the hopes that it would help her.  It helped me.

My mother lost her own fight with cancer this summer.  She battled for almost two years.  I'm still not prepared to discuss it.  During that time, I reached out to a very small circle and crafted email updates to process/keep them informed.  My mother left this earth cared for by hospice, physically comforted by her friends at her new home, and assured that she had closure with her family.

And now...well, I'm sure she has my cat.

Whether you process your challenges alone, with a small circle, or a wider forum is irrelevant.  Your challenge may be the health of family, friend, spouse or pet.  Perhaps you have a fabulous job but it is no longer fulfilling.  Maybe balancing all arenas of your life isn't all that it was once cracked up to be.  It doesn't matter.  You aren't weak for reaching out and sharing your experience.  Someone else may be stronger for it.  You may be surprised by the love and support you receive.

I look forward to writing about the lessons I've learned from Angel when my heart is less heavy.  Until then, I've included all of "Angel's" thoughts from this week at the close of this entry.

I don't think you have to be an animal person to open your heart to the idea of preparing to let go.

Angel Action 

Day #1 11/11/13

The man and the lady brought me back from the V-E-T. I'm not happy. You may think it is because I have lymphoma in my organs. Nope. The lady just tried to give me a pill- Feline Immune System Support. She even put it in tuna. I may be sick but I'm stubborn. She even sat with me in the bathroom so that the boy "Karma No" and the girl "Patches, Where's Patches?" wouldn't eat it. I made my lady proud and just meowed No. 

See? "Patches, Where's Patches?" was happy happy to eat it.

Meows and Hisses,

"Angel Momma"

Day #2 11/12/13

I overheard the lady say, "My cat has cancer so I get to eat walnuts." I have no idea what she is meowing about.

My legs are wobbly today. I couldn't get onto my cat perch, so the man helped me. I tried to get down...the man built an obstacle course to help me. "Karma no" was inspecting for safety violations.

The lady came home and had me try can after can of Fancy Feast. She even gave me sardines. Just don't want to eat. I licked some peanut butter. Then, the lady added something to it. I stopped. She squirted drops down my throat and shoved a pill in there, too. Now, I'm camped out under the black chair. Invisible. (I may have spit my pill out in the litter box. Not telling.)

Meows and hisses,

"Angel Momma"

Day #3 11/13/13

The lady woke up at 5AM and pulled me from my secret hiding spot. She mumbled something about a burrito and then I was trapped in a towel. I'm weak but feisty. I tried very hard to bite the lady. I got my front paws free! The lady gave me my witch's brew & then I heard her say, "Hiss! I gave her the wrong pill!" (PS. She didn't say "hiss" but you get the idea.)

The man and the lady took me for an emergency visit after talking to Dr. Soares because I puked bile a few times. I would puke rainbows and unicorns if I could! I love Dr. Soares. Except when she touches me. Talks to me. Says "subcutaneous fluids" and "more shots" and "pill pockets" and such. 

All of the rooms at the inn were full so we were hanging in the bereavement room. They apologized but the lady and the man were OK. Besides, they used to hang out there when they met "Karma No." 

I lost a pound since Friday. After shots and pills, the man and the lady were taught to inject me with fluids tonight. THANKS A LOT! Dr. Hernandez talked to my people about their options. As soon as they said "terminal" and "short term care" I knew I had to show off a bit.

I love my people, especially the man. I know his heart is broken but I have to go to heaven to see the lady's mommy. She's been there alone since the summer and needs a cat.

I'm not leaving yet! Have some stuff to do at home. I have to show "Karma No" and "Patches, where's Patches" the best places to vomit and make sure they are going to be good to each other. I'll spend a nice day Saturday with the man and the lady. Then, we will see.

Meows and Hisses, 

"Angel Momma"

Day #4 11/14/13

I hate shots. I HATE pills. But, I was a little hungry last night. I wasn't sure that I wanted anything. The lady put 6 different bowls in front of my hiding spot. I heard "Karma No" eating and remembered how we ate together. So, I kept the kid company and licked a plate. 

My people have been up since 3:30AM and they continued on with their day. The man stayed here with me so I missed my NPR programs.

The lady sang my favorite song to me when she got home.

(To the tune of "Free Fallin" by Tom Petty):

"She's a good girl. She loves her mama. Loves Patches and Karma, too. She's Angel................Angel Bichovsky-Thomas." She kisses me on my neck and I purr while wet things fall from her eyes. She whispers, "Is this right? Is this time? What if..." I blink at her to tell her it's fine. I know the lady thinks I like the man better. But I secretly love her best because she brushes me.

I'm starting to get excited! I remeowbered that I'm going to see "Princess? Who's a pretty Princess?" in two days. She was the Cat Who Got Her Meow Back when I was born. We used to live together at a Silk Mill. It was a cool place. We would chase each other up and down a spiral staircase and watch birds all day from our floor to ceiling windows. 

Our people bought us a house and we played there, too. Until "Princess? Who's a pretty Princess?" didn't come home one day. My people said she went to play at a rainbow bridge and I'd see her again. The lady said I'd also see my cousin "Tat! Who's a crazy Tat!" there, too. I never met her. I heard she was very grumpy but very sweet at the same time. She knew "Princess? Who's a pretty Princess?" I hope they let me play...

Gotta go! Thinking about hiding. (The man and the lady said something about fluids.)  But, I think I will stay. We are all camped out in the living room on the sofa bed. And, we have American Horror Story to get through...

Meows and Hisses,

"Angel Momma"

Day #5 11/15/13

Tomorrow's the day. I'm going to the Rainbow Bridge. It should be a piece of treat. I'm a great traveler. I used to go to the shore a lot when I was younger. I would sneak in and sleep under "Marty!"'s bed and he would sneeze. It was fun! I also used to go with the lady to visit "The Granny" at her apartment. She was 90. The lady would get upset to find me in the cupboard in a bowl. But not "The Granny." "She can do anything she wants when she's at 'The Granny's'" is what she would say.

I never got to meet the lady's mom but I heard that she adores cats. The lady's mom was really sick, too, and she went to her own bridge this summer. There is a silly song on the radio called Cups. The lady was hearing it a lot when her mom was sick. "You're gonna to miss me when I'm gone," was a sad lyric for her to hear and she still cries a little bit when she hears it. She said that she was driving to work this morning and she cried about me over this lyric, "You're gonna to miss me by my hair." The lady must be playing with my catnip.

The man turned off the heat and opened up the window today. I sat on my perch and checked out my backyard. I needed to make sure all the birds are taken care of and my butterfly plants are OK.  I hope that "Patches, where's Patches?" and "Karma no" will look out for stinkbugs...

I hope that my people do better tonight. They fell asleep before 9 o'clock yesterday. Lame! The lady said something this morning about maybe watching the Suzie and Chuck video tonight. "Princess? Who's a pretty Princess?" is on it. The man said something about stabbing himself in the eyeballs.

The other cats better get their acts together. I've put up with the young one licking me and the other one sniffing me. But they're not as good to the lady as I am. The boy will only let the lady hold him if she standing up. And the girl will never let the lady hold her. The lady's lap is going to be awfully empty without me and I hope that they figure out that she needs them. 

It's my job to greet her every day after work when she comes in the door. I sit on her lap when I'm ready and she tells me about her day. I know the people aren't going to get another cat. They're a two cat household with three fur faces. When "Princess? Who's a pretty Princess?" left for the bridge, I was all alone and I only ever knew having a fur friend. So, the man and the lady got me "Patches, where's Patches?" She is a very special cat and is very set in her ways. "Karma no" was an unplanned fur face but they really love him. I get it. He's sweet. I finally stopped trying to kill him when I realized he was licking me because he loved me. Don't tell him I said this! (Paw swear?) But I kind of love him, too. Or, I'm mildly indifferent to him.

Gotta get my beauty sleep! I already took nap #100 today on the lady's lap. She laid on the sofa bed with me and I crawled onto her all by myself. It was hard to nap because I was purring so loud! Then, the man come home and he laid with us. His eyes were leaking as he asked if we were doing the right thing. The lady pet us both and said, "We are doing it for her. She's leaving us purring. What could be better?"

I thank everyone (and their fur faces) for their nice words and prayers. I never met most of you. Be kind to my people. Maybe rub their bellies, between their eyes above their noses, or under their chins. Those are the best spots!

Meows and Kisses,

"Angel Momma" 

Day #6 11/16/13

“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened. ” - Anatole France

“If having a soul means being able to feel love and loyalty and gratitude, then animals are better off than a lot of humans.” – James Herriot

“Don’t cry because it’s over, Smile because it happened.” - Ted Geisel (Dr. Seuss)

Just Playing

If you have children, work with children, know children, or were once a child, then...you are familiar with the following phrase.  "We were just playing."

Punched someone in the face?   "We were just playing."

Threaten to stab your brother?   "We were just playing."

Ripped the head off of your friend's doll, prompting an epic smack down between two moms?  Oops!   "We were just playing."

I can't help but wonder if I could apply this philosophy to my adult life.

Forget to pay the mortgage?   "We were just playing."

Don't show up at work for a week or fail to get a project done?   "We were just playing."

Hurt someone close to you?   "We were just playing."

The problem with "just playing" is that both parties need to be in on the game and know what the rules are.

What's your game?  What are your rules?  And, most important...have you clued people into them?

Have a great week and remember to play fair.

HallowSanta

Halloween is my ultimate holiday.  We had a Halloween themed wedding, a pumpkin of mints sits on my workspace all yearlong, and we don't take our decorations down until after Thanksgiving.   We have a zombie in our yard who stays until the snow starts to fall.  

I am a Hard Core Halloweenite.  Why?

I can remember celebrating Halloween with my cousin Maxine as a little girl.  Maxine was forty years my senior.  She would dress me up and take me trick-or-treating.  But it was the Santa experience I remember best.

*****Spoliers- shouldn't be read by those working on their Christmas lists!******

Once upon a time, Maxine took me to the mall to see Santa.  I was VERY young.  I believe the story goes we waited in line and, when I saw him... I screamed my face off.

On another once upon a time, Maxine borrowed a Santa suit complete with wig, beard- whole nine years from a coworker.  She dressed up as Santa, bit by bit, in front of me.   Complete with facial hair.

And...I screamed my face off again.

This story has been told to me over the years.  I do remember two things: screaming at the final transformation and calming down when I saw her eyes.

I knew her eyes.

I think that was when I learned you can tell a lot about someone by their eyes.  People can cover up with clothing, makeup, and beards.  They can modify facial expressions.  But, unless you're using contacts, you can't change your eyes.

Enjoy the Season of HallowThankChanukaMas and be sure to be on the lookout for leftover Zombies, Santa's helpers, and people who hide their eyes from you.  (PS.  Pirates RRRRRRRRR exempt!)